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| Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 | | 8:13 pm |
we mourn the loss of this livejournal. ghedron is dead. i won't be deleting it, but I won't be posting here anymore. It was a crap journal anyway. I will have a new one soon, but you have to guess the new name. screw this blog in it's dead puss filled ear. | | Monday, September 12th, 2005 | | 11:58 pm |
tonight is the night i finally broke. fuck the world. seriously. the only reason i am leaving comments on this time is because i dare anyone to give me a a little ray of sunshine. if you do, prepare to not want to be my friend anymore. | | 1:16 am |
| | Saturday, September 10th, 2005 | | 4:53 am |
this is not an easy night
I could not have scripted a worse sequence of events in my life, and keep everyone i know alive. god... whiskey.... it may kill me, but i'd be dead with out it. | | Thursday, September 1st, 2005 | | 12:42 pm |
Fuck Gothcoming
Shannon and I started talking about gothcoming on the way to the high 5 saturday, as we are less and less thrilled to go the high 5 every week. I brought up that there was something extremely fishy about Gothcoming, since, if everything is in order with the bar, and there is just more physical work to be done, then there is no reason why they wouldn't open the place full time after gothcoming, i mean, come on, it's not like the old place was well put together. I was right. Big suprise. They DO NOT have a liquor license yet, and there will be NO booze at gothcoming. You are paying 10 bucks to attend a voltaire concert basically, in a half finished venue. I say "you" because there is no way in hell i'll be going. I state right now that I no longer believe outland will ever be open, and I won't change my opinion on that until i've bought my first jack on the rocks there. | | Wednesday, August 31st, 2005 | | 2:28 am |
screw you dirty pagan hippies
Objectivism
You scored 62 Angst, 20 Weirdness, and 80 Freedom! |
Not a religion so much as a philosophical and political system, Objectivism was first articulated by author Ayn Rand in her novels The Fountainhead and Atlas Shrugged (the latter of which was listed second only to the Bible in a survey of college students about which book influenced them the most). Objectivism is based on the idea that reason, science, and objectivity are the only ways of knowing, and that laissez-faire capitalism is the best economic system around.
Despite its open distaste for religion, many have accused Objectivism of having a cult-like belief system, one that includes the virtual deification of Rand. This ultimately led to a split between the hard-core Rand followers in the Ayn Rand Institute and the less dogmatic Insitute for Objectivist Studies.
http://www.aynrand.org/ |
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My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 92% on Angst |
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You scored higher than 14% on Weirdness |
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You scored higher than 95% on Freedom |
| | | Tuesday, August 30th, 2005 | | 1:40 am |
Fuck LJ cuts
At gencon I met the worlds greatest rapper. mc chris. aka hesh from sealab 2021, mc pee pants/sir loin/little brittle from aqua teen hunger force. He's awesome. My new favorite rap song of time follows. (the lyrics site obviously doesn't realize that you NEVER capatilize mc chris, or put in dots) Mc Chris Ownz ( Read more... )and just so you know, he's one of us http://www.livejournal.com/users/clixnwhistles/ | | Monday, August 29th, 2005 | | 4:19 am |
A long, dreadful weekend.
A lot of things I should cover at this point maybe, but I don't have the energy. One thing I do want to say though. I'm sorry if I've upset you. I'm not sure how I did it, but I'm sure of the result. You've been of ever growing importance in my life, and I certainly don't want an abrupt ending to that. I thought things were going well, and I didn't know what the next step was, but I certainly never imagined it would be silence between us. I haven't had a lot of good things in my life recently, very little to look forward to, but you always made me smile. And that is no small feat. I hope you call soon, I really miss talking to you. Such simple things get so complicated. Current Mood:  confused | | Thursday, August 4th, 2005 | | 12:38 am |
| | Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005 | | 12:35 pm |
Anyone Suprised?
HELL LEVEL 3
Raw score: 95% |
There's a special place in Hell for you: the basement penthouse. You scored the nastiest possible on the Sexual Hell Test. You have no sexual restraint whatsoever. You'll take pleasure however you can get it, and my guess is you get it a lot. If for some reason you don't right now, you will soon, as people in your category only tend to spiral down ever deeper into the abyss of carnality and delicious sin. Congratulations.
I, personally, think that this category is the best. Paradoxically enough, sexual liberation and indulgence can only bring you closer to purity and honesty.
AVOID: all but level 3 hellions like yourself. You wouldn't want to ruin anyone, now would you? |
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My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 93% on hellish |
| | | Monday, August 1st, 2005 | | 8:25 pm |
DnD update
I need to know who is really in. The numbers have jumped from 4, to 9, and now to only 1 confirmed. So let me know so I can make arrangements, or not. | | Sunday, July 31st, 2005 | | 3:18 am |
A letter to four girls
Excuse the drunken mistakes. I'm drunk. Number One. You are number one. You always will be. No one, ever, could possibly be more important to me than you. I will love you so completely, so wholely, that I may never know anything else. I don't know why I will never be that to you, but it doesn't matter. No matter how much you or I want it to be different, this is the path. I wish you the best, more than that. I give you everything I am, and hope it will get you there. Get better. I will never be whole if you leave us. The only other thing I wish is the ability to forgive you for breaking my heart, so many times. Number Two. I call, but you do not answer. I have stopped, but it isn't enough to quiet me. It will be soon. I did not realize that it was at this point, until it happened. I may never think of you two the same. I may never forgive a sin that didn't happen. And if that is the case, I will be sorry, hell, I will never forgive myself. I don't know what is to be now, but I know what I wanted was an illusion, and that is why I pretended not to want it. No matter what, I'm sorry. Number Three. I wish I was happy for you. All I see are wasted chance, and fresh mistakes, yours and mine. I'll figure it out, and you'll be happy, in your current path I imagine. If I can't do the things you want, forgive me. I'm not strong, I never will be, and I'd rather burn alone than have it hurt you at a time that is unforgivable. Number Four. I miss you so much. You will never know it. Until I met you, I never realized how much I could love another person. If I could have been your father, I would be. I never wanted that, but I knew it'd be you, I'd give up everything for that chance. I can't hear your name without crying. I hear the last voicemail you left me, and I'm destroyed. You are now 5 years old, a little person, and soon, I won't know you. It will be the most painful memory I've ever had. or, more correctly, the most painful lack of memories. I can't keep thinking about you, it kills me. Good night evangeline. i love you most of all. I can't do this anymore. | | Friday, July 29th, 2005 | | 12:40 pm |
| | Wednesday, July 27th, 2005 | | 1:48 pm |
A dream.
I don't remember dreams well, I can only ever get bits, but I remember one bit from a couple of days ago very well. It took place in the warehouse where I work, and some sort of movie-esqe psycho killer was on the loose, killing people with a small portable chainsaw. In a small store room (which, incidently, we don't have), some people caught him in a bag but couldn't figure out what to do with him. I came in, and instead of messing around with the whole situation I decided to use the chainsaw to cut his head off and be done with it. But, I'd have to let him out to do it properly, so I just found where the head was, and instead of choping it off at the neck, i just cut it in half from about the eyes up. It was a gruesome sight, and I've seen enough medical and health programs that my brain did a good job of making scene. About a minute later, we learned they had caught the wrong person and thus I'd killed the wrong person, but I didn't feel bad about that, and really wanted to catch the guy so I could do it again. Maybe there is a reason I don't share my dreams. | | Sunday, July 24th, 2005 | | 2:50 am |
Part Two
I have a unique gift for precognition. It is a talent I've been cursed with for many years. It's nothing mystical, just a talent for deductive reasoning, coupled with a very realistic view of the nature of people. I can see the very shitiest things that are going to happen to me, quite clearly. I saw something several months ago. It is manifest. Hope is a foolish thought. I felt none tonight. only hate. | | Saturday, July 23rd, 2005 | | 3:31 am |
Just one of those days.
Some nights remind you of who, and more imporantly why you are what you are. I am who I am. At this late hour I neither can, nor want to change. I don't believe that people can change. They can alter their situation, but I don't believe they can change who they are. Nor should they. I will not be popular. I will not be loved. I will not be necessary or integral, nor will anyone ever really need me. I will this thing I am now forever, the only variable is how long forever is. And yes, I'll end with that unanswerable question. | | Wednesday, July 20th, 2005 | | 1:28 pm |
For those playing in my DnD game
I need to know the distribution of classes for those choosing the "greater potential" option. Post them as replies to this thread. Thanks | | Monday, July 18th, 2005 | | 6:04 pm |
Some setting details for my game
1. There are no Monks. I HATE monks, they have no place in my game. 2. The ability to be a paladin is gifted to you, you cannot just decide you are one. They are rare in the extreme, and virtually unknown. 3. The ability to be a sorcerer is even rarer. It happens once in a dozen generations if that. 4. There are no Undead. To make up for lack of turning, clerics each get one free elemental domain (based on diety). They may rebuke like elementals, and turn oppisite. IE a cleric with the water domain can turn Fire and control Water. 5. Along the lines of the no Undead, people aren't just coming back to life willy nilly in this world. Clerics have tried, even with Miracle, and failed. No one has successfully come back from the dead. A note on my DM style. At lower level, there will many events that just happen. You will be spectators to many earthshattering things you have no control over, and cannot change. This is a fact of everyones life. At higher levels, you will be the most important beings on the planet. And I'm not talking 20th level, I'm talking half that even. The characters will each have their destinies, and you will determine the path they take to get there. The destinies of some may be to have a brief life. Others may defy death even when it looks completely hopeless. I treat DnD as I treat everything else. I use it to tell a story. | | 1:00 pm |
For those who are interested, DnD
The little city of Anolia is as close to idealic as any of the inhabitants could imagine. It rests peacefully on the beautiful shore of Lake Anolia, and in the shadow of the majestic Old Mountain. The thousand or so residents experience little in the way of crime, and though the vague threat of orc or goblin attack does exist, the high walls and strong gaurds have long been more than sufficent. The lands are fertile, the food is plentiful, and all trust Lord Koelahiar to govern the town fairly. What could possibly happen here? The PCs are young inhabitants of this little lake town, not much more than 16 years of age (or the rough equivelant in elf or dwarf ages). A game to be ran Saturday afternoons, location to be determined. (and this was here the entire time Joe, you are losing your mind, this isn't an after the fact edit, no way no how). ( Creation Guide for my upcoming d20 fantasy game ) | | Friday, July 15th, 2005 | | 8:57 pm |
My Pagan Quiz Results
umm... i don't have any, not because I didn't try to take it, I did, but when you strongly disagree with all of the bullshit questions they ask you (which I honestly do), they give you a list of questions that you MUST answer one to complete your quiz. Here is the question, with why i couldn't say it was more accurate than the BS above or below it: Which of the following statements is most accurate... 1 Everything is about duality; man/woman, good/evil, light/dark. (I HATE dualism, I think it is the single most destructive thing any religon can incorporate) 2 The Futhark and runes are a major contribution from my faith. (I don't have a faith) 3 My faith's history spans before the written word, though some later were written in Cuneform script. (I don't have a faith) 4 It's not uncommon for me to ask for help from gods from all different sorts of pantheons. (Gods don't exist, so I don't ask them for jack or squat) 5 I gave up something for lent this year. (I'd piss on the Pope sooner than do anything for lent) 6 I know the Bhagadvagita is. (I've got no clue what that is) 7 In my religion, knowing Hebrew can be an asset. (I don't have a religion) 8 The Horned God is usually known at Cernnunos or Herne in my religion. (I don't have a religion) 9 Tools of my faith often include sage, feathers, drums, and rattles. (I don't have a faith) 10 I wear an ankh right beside my pentacle all the time. (I think I own a pentacle... but no ankh) 11 When it's time to throw a party, I am often inspired by the God Bacchus. (I drink wine with meals, not at parties) 12 When praying for love to come my way, I pray to Aphrodite. (I don't pray) Guess that makes me no kind of Pagan at all. Which I'm not. |
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